March 22, 2013

Hockey Tournament: Stadium Azlan Shah Cup 2013


I had such a great nite on Sunday. When I first saw a sign board written ’6 Nation Emcees’, I was quite blur what it was all about then I found out it’s about Hockey Tournament and as always the match is always held here in Ipoh. I don’t know why but people said we have a good field or track or whatever.
FYI, my first sports match that my dad took me to is hockey’s match. I don’t remember how old am I by the time but I enjoyed it very much. But last nite was crazy, they already started when I’d park my car and me & my cousin walking in hand in hands. Afraid we might lost each other in the crowd. What a disaster, we couldn’t get any network coverage there. I couldn’t update pic or tweet anything bout it. How pathetic!
Lucky to us, we moved to the front row. I don’t know how we get there but I was holding my cousin’s hand & pull her away with me following two ladies in front of us. We’re so proud when Msia got their first goal at early 30mins (penalty), then catch up by Aus during penalty with 2 goals next. And we got another goal after the 2nd round. I thought we could go tied unfortunately Aus make a last goal at 30secs before game over.
Still we are so proud that Msia can make to the final this time. And the Aussies are quite friendly though. One of em came to crowds & gave his Hi-5. Including me hehe. I said I was in front row, didn’t I?
xoxo, Ririey Zaries










xoxo


March 6, 2013

Brain digging starts now

Hey I don't mean brain digging as if digging with hoe or whatever but I gotta dig my brain to think of something creative, a good one as I applied for a new challenging story in a website. I already got my story published in the site (kinda proud a bit hehe).

The one that I got for challenging story is a very nice story written by Monique, one of my fave author. It's kinda scares me to bits, if I might screwed her story. When I apply for the challenge, I was praying so that I'll get my fave Lifer and since Monique and me like the same Lifer I thought the story is about him and of course I'm happy with it.

But then this morning I checked my e-mail again.................. and guess what.... I was wrong... :(

And the stuff is "CHEESE CAKE"!!! 

Automatically I have to think of something related to cheese cake? LOL I got an idea of the story but some of the readers might not like it. I might write that the girl is over him and she has moves on, does she? Can she forgot the one she loves so much before and remain friend with her ex as they did now?

By the way here's my story published in the site -> You're My Valentine. Screw my English, sorry for that hehe. Enjoy it bye bye

xoxo, RZ


March 5, 2013

When I got nothing to say

This is what gonna happen when I got no reason to stay oooppsss I mean nothing to say.. this place is more into a dust collection rather than a place to tell a story.. Seems like it has turn out to be update once in a month than once in a week as I always did before. Perhaps it has something to do since my uncle passed away. Honestly I found myself lack of stories to write since he's gone. Not sure what really is bothering me, I just felt like "nah what the heck I'm logging to blogger when I got nothing to say". Maybe coz my Sunday is always spent with him, dye his hair to cover his white hair.. Gosh I miss those moments, unfortunately we can't turn it back. If only we got a time machine, only HE could tell what's happen next....

By the way, believe it or not, I went to a dinner at state ministry house, hurm few weeks ago.. At first I was not sure if I'm going or not but lucky me my cousin willing to accompany me. You have no idea how awkward we were. For the first time in our life going to state ministry house. Since that is the first even we ever join, of course we don't have the shirt as they wore. FYI, I'm a BNYV (Barisan Nasional Youth Volunteer). I almost forgot what is BNYV when I got a call from someone named Syed. When he explained if I ever register my name  last year then I can remember and thought how foolish I am.

Officially it has become my brother nite shirt now.. Can't believe we're in the same size LOL

I still have a lot of things to say but I forgot what are they... oh yeah my fanfic story is now published in Neverland also I applied for a new challenge story which I have to continue the story line or plots.. And I'm so glad that I got what I wished for and the author is my fave. Feel honored a bit to continue her story hehe but that's not the "things" I want to say actually.. Meanwhile.. Bye bye ttyl


P/S : Our fam is still not over with the loss of our love ones. We might seem ok but deep inside, we're trying to control our feelings. Let alone when we're talk bout him, we can't stop our tears from running down our cheeks. 


xoxo, RZ

February 19, 2013

Kong Si Kong Si

Assalamualaikum guys.. Phew rasa macam dah berlapuk je blog ni kan.. dari weekly update dah jadi monthly update plak :S bukan malas ke apa tapi tak tahu apa nak tulis.. apa nak cerita.. rasa macam dah freeze sekejap brain ni.. #freezybrain? LOL


Siapa cakap only Chinese je yang ada makan besar on their CNY's eve? My fam pun ada tau.... tapi.............. jauh berbeza la.. my fam buat tahlil untuk arwah uncle.. dah 3 bulan lebih dah tapi terasa macam dia ada lagi.. dah.. tak nak sedih sedih.. 


Sepanjang CNY ni, asyik makan-makan je.. nampak sangat I dari fam yang kuat makan kan #tehee


Yang ini pic tahlil, cuma adik beradik je.. tak panggil ramai orang pun.. 


Then pukul 2am tu, boleh my uncle ajak pergi supper.. =.= makan punya pasal kan, on je la......... orang belanja tu hehe Petang tu pun makan lagi, ayamas black pepper sekor, KFC, chicken finger & hash brown... awesome kan perut kitorg.. bleh isi banyak stok LOL


Sempat lagi tau esok tu pergi mandi sungai.. 


Petang tu jugalah tiba-tiba idea nak masak lemang.. Pak su balik kg cari lemang, kitorg pergi Giant & Tesco cari barang.. sampai dua mart.. gilos! *.* bru sejam sampai rumah, dah ajak pergi makan kenduri plak.. rasanya sepanjang cuti tu punggung tak lekat langsung kt rumah..


So lemang pun tau nak utamakan 'safety first' *kalaulah arwah uncle ada lagi, tak tahu apa response dia kalau tahu front seat ni dah jadi tempat duduk lemang*


Orang yang bertanggungjawab memastikan lemang & rendang dimasak sebelum operasi hantar menghantar


Nasib baiklah malam tu call boss, dia cakap cuti tambah lagi 2 hari.. OMG!!! LEGANYA!! Time ni barulah nak merasa nikmat cuti CNY.. hukhuk


Back to work.. bos plak ajak jom jom tangkap gambar + bakar mercun


Btw y'all mestilah kenal mamat ni kan? Handsome + cute kan..


Dia nak datang M'sia Feb 22 ni.. So I pun tergedik-gediklah nak join contest Astro Diva, manalah tahu ada rezeki, ada luck.. menang contest M&G ni.. ambil kau.. berlari-lari I aku nak jumpa Mike ni ;p


Sempena Valentine kot.. betul-betul traffic light depan Jusco @ AEON Ipoh


Girlies I dah tahu sangat dengan habit I yang suka baca fanfic ni.. and of course I ada favorite I sendiri but so far, this is the most sad story.... A Love To Last


xoxo


January 8, 2013

My Intention -> 2013

Darling babies my love...

I know I'm crazy enough & sometimes I don't even know any limit to do things that I like esp when it comes to the stuff that I really really love.. *merepek sudah*

Bukan y'all je yang ada set up Intention in 2013 aka Azam 2013 .. I pun ada azam I juga tau..

1. Teddy Bank
Omputih kata piggy bank tapi tak apalah, I orang Melayu.. Panggil Teddy Bank pun da cukup comel da.. I can't remember when is the last time I had teddy bank sebab I ni bukan category yang pandai nak menabung bagai ni.. Time sekolah dulu pernahlah menabung *time tu guna camel bank, waktu primary school* Bila dah jadi secondary school student, mulalah simpan RM 1 sehari *tu pun niat nak beli handphone* sudahnya merasa 5x tukar handphone.. Every form kot.. Thank you to my parents & my late uncle sebab rajin melayan kerenah I. Tapi sekarang dah besar, umur pun da 2+.. kenalab belajar berdikari untuk masa depan depan depan lagi...................................

2. Guarantee My Future
What is it?? Sorry.. can't tell y'all rite now.. It's something that I've been trying to do for the last 6-7months ago.. Hope this time it'll work.. :)


3. Tak nak lagi bercinta dengan Mr. M di alam mimpi
Macam sengal + geli dengan ayat tu? Well.. it's a fact.. I think dah terlebih cukup I bercinta dengan Mr. M ni.. Time sekolah dulu, all my friends cakap 'macam lah dapat kahwin dengan Mark'.. I tak kisah pun apa orang cakap janji I bahagia.. tapi sekarang sudah sudahlah.. 10 tahun setia dengan yang sorang ni je.. *termuntah aku baca*


4. Saya nak jadi anak SOLEHAH
Inilah yang paling penting sekali antara semua sekali.. Tak dapat tunaikan yang ini tak guna azam yang lain itu.. tak berkat.. Tak tahulah pada y'all senang atau susah nak jadi anak yang paling baik sebab sometimes benda yang easy pun automatically y'all cakap susah.. so let's do the best we can.. Love em.. spoil em.. as how they did to us since we're just a lil baby..

Kelakar eh.... sebab I cuma ada 4 azam..? Dah tu je yang cuma dapat terfikir buat masa ni.. My brain ni bukan macam meat grinder.. kejap je dah boleh fikir semua but it's better than nothing rite? Apapun I wish all of your dreams will come true.. Whatever that u can't achieve last year, make sure it happens in this year.. If not, try again.. 

Life is not about giving up when you fail, it's not about what people might judge when u failed neither..
But it's about how u made it, it's about what u would sacrifice or do to achieve it.. xoxo - RZ


Try again..
Never stop believing..
Try again..
Don't give up on your love..
Stumble and fall is the heart of it all..
When you fall down..
Just try again..


January 3, 2013

Welcome 2013 !!

Ladies & gentleman's.. dudes & bass.. lads & lassies..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

WOW!! Can't believe that we all now are in 2013, guess Mayans are in a BIG BIG shame after they confidentially said world is going to end in Dec 21st 2012..

Seriously I hadn't writing any list or wishes for this year yet.. damn I completely don't even have a single list or wish yet.. but one thing for sure is I want to get done with my loan's application first.. then only I can move to the next step *I do hope they'll approve my application this time, it's been 6 months since they rejected*

Guys u have no idea how long did I trapped in traffic.. just to celebrate the new year's countdown but it worth ;)

Spend my new year's holiday by watching Love & Laugh Marathon at DIVA Channel

Am not really sure what is going on with that channel.. they keep playing the love movies since 8am till 7pm.. followed by Shakespeare In Love after The Lost Valentine. That is the 3rd time I watch The Lost Valentine and as for Shakespeare In Love, it's countless...

And that evening, we all went to my uncle's grave.. sadly.. we are celebrating the new year without him.. awkward.. and it's not even a month yet since he passed away.. *Al-Fatihah Allahyarham Sainal Abidin*

The only words that my aunt keep saying is, both of us will never forget the day he passed away since it's happened in front of our own two eyes..

OMG!! My baby brother, well he's the onlt brother I have.. just started school today.. a real school..

Things to do I wrote in my list:

- February : Mi's brother wedding 
- March : Tiffany Alvord's gig at Damansara
- April : LAWSON's gig & Ina's wedding
- May : My parents 25th anniversary
- August : Syam's wedding

That's all left so far, and most excitedly is Mark & Shane first solo album!! Yippe yippee yippee !! ;D #wink

Ta daa!! It just the typical me.. hahaha #HappyNewYear ;p

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

xoxo - RZ


December 26, 2012

The Bet Of Love

Hello everyone.. I bet you all are still Christmas excitement.. Btw I have something to share with you which I have use to fill in my  Christmas holiday with. I think it's fair enough if I just give you a teaser of some dialog..

The teaser
"Not in the slightest. Now your little proposition with Jess. You got two weeks too just like Mark. Get her, bed her and make her fall in love with you. Simple enough I'm sure so Nicky what should we put on this one?" asked Shane. - Chapter 4, written by Victoria Liu-Pearson

Chapter 1

Sniggering quietly & huddled in a corner on the 4th level of the Kate Edgar Information Commons four young men sat on the comfy red sofas and eagerly counted their money bills.

"Another successful bet has gone our way. I have to say lads we sure as hell know our stuff," said one of the dark-haired guy's Shane Filan. He comes across as the immediate leader of the pack; the tough and un-compromising guy no one would want to cross.

"Yes exactly and maybe that'll teach Byron and the rest of his gang not to challenge us again. It's like the fourth or fifth time he's loss and still he keeps coming back for more punishment." Replied one of the blonde's; Kian Egan. He's the business planner of the group and he's always on top of his game; after counting up his bills he tucked it away safely into his wallet.

"Well what do you expect? They were the reigning champions here before we came alone, but I agree he's got to start growing up and acting like a real man." Added the second blonde Nicky Byrne. He's a good debater and smart financial operator and also a true genius in the media. The second of the dark haired guys' is Mark Feehily; the quiet achiever with more than meets the eye. He's also a great charmer with the ladies, completely out shining his opponents on any one occasion.

"All right so we got some extra cash what you lads say we got out and have a drink tonight?" Nicky looked at his three mates.

"Yeah why not about time we had a good session." Shane replied.

"So it's Shadows again eh?" Kian raised his eyebrows a cheeky grin spreading across his lips. Mark and Nicky slapped him upside the head.

"Ow! Thanks I really needed it." He glared at them.

"What is it with you and going to Shadows anyway Ki? It's not the most glamorous of bar's to be at especially with the kind of status we maintain. Our frequent visits there make us look desperate for a girlfriend," Nicky said.

"So? Who cares about any of that rubbish? People have always been talking about us behind our backs, making up stupid assumptions and going on what they hear and see. We're there to enjoy ourselves is all." Kian reasoned.

"I can tell you are straight out lying Ki," Shane replied.

"What? What makes you think I am?"

"Because of what you said, so I'm going to go out on a limb and say this has to do with a girl. Or more specifically a barmaid there," Kian's eyes avoided his friend's menacing look.

"I…er…"

"I knew it." Shane grinned triumphantly leaning against the sofa. Nicky and Mark exchanged knowing looks; no one can ever hide a secret from Shane he's just far too smart.

"Who is she?" Mark inquired; Kian ran a hand through his hair and blew air out through his lips.

"I tell you lads she is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. I know I've had some great ones in the past year but this one…I just know she is one of a kind." He explained.

"And what exactly are you going to do about it? I suspect you can't use your usual approaches because it's not a bet." Mark said.

"That's exactly right but it's the only way I know how," Kian sighed, he wished there was another way but there just isn't.

"Don't fret Ki we'll help you out tonight." Nicky patted his friend on the shoulder; Kian whirled around to him a bit shocked.

"Are you crazy? I don't need help." He answered defensively.

"Ki, Ki relax mate. We're your best mates you know and we don't mind giving a bit of a helping hand. Like you say this is not a bet so you got to change tact." Shane added leaning forwards and clasping his hands together.

"Maybe." Kian mumbled.

Over at the English department in one of the tutorial room's, head tutor Robin Saunders explained to her class their next assignment.

"Now I want you all to listen very carefully as I've thought long and hard about this. The old English novelists always spoke of love as this romantic evolution that all started from simple courtships, hand in marriages and all that. But this is the 21st Century and we know love has come a long way from then. So, your jobs individually are to play the field, explore the notions of love." She said; she saw shocked, excited looks from her students.

"But, remember I want a full report. Also I warn you to be careful and now you may all go." Robin instructed, instantly the students scurried out of the room all chattering excitedly; for once their assignments required them to use theory and practice they can't wait! Vickie, Nicole and Jessica left along with their classmates.

"So what do you guys think of this new assignment of ours?" Jess asked.

"I don't know what to make of it really, I mean it's going to be quite the challenge no doubt. But I don't get why she wants us to fall in love and then write about it." Vickie said scratching her head totally perplexed.

"Yeah I don't get it much either but hey, you two do realize what this means right?" Nicole looked at her two friends with a playful grin; seeing her look Vic and Jess knew what she's referring to.

"Nic, as tempting an idea as yours in I'm not really looking to play any mind games with those guys. Do you know what their record is even like?" Vic said in disgust.

"Oh come on Vic it'll be fun. Lets use it to get back at them for doing it to the other girls on campus…like an act on revenge or something. It's about time someone taught them a good lesson in their own game," Jess added; she wouldn't mind one bit in giving Kian a good taste of his own tact. Vickie still didn't look overly convinced by this, sure those guys had a bit of a rep but it's how they were and of all things to discover love with them? There's no way she'd even want to venture down such a road. Jess glanced down at her watch; they didn't have a lot of time to get to work.

"Girls, Bronson said he's taking the night off from working at Shadows so it's up to us to take over and we have a lot of work to do before the night starts. Patrons will start coming at around 8pm." She replied.

"Yeah good point we'd better go." Nicole nodded.

"You guys go ahead I'm just going to drop some of the books I borrowed from the short-loan library," Vic said.

"Ok see you there." Nicole and Jessica headed off in the direction of the quad, university central as some called it; Vickie thou took a short cut to the Information Commons located on level 1.

"Lads you want something from Munchy Mart since I'm going past while I return the book?" Mark asked getting to his feet and tucking the crabby old textbook underneath his arm.

"No thanks Marky but ta-a for offering." Kian answered, both Nicky and Shane also declined; Mark headed off, making his way down to level 1, he allowed his mind to drift away for moment; thinking back to the time when Shane had first roped him into this idea of bets on the girls. He'd been so young and pretty innocent especially in his first year here, never had too much courage to just walk up to a girl he fancied and ask her out. Thanks to Shane however all of it begun to change and in a year he'd been with numerous girls till he's lost count. The format of it all suited Mark well as he'd not too keen on settling down just yet he knew he still has lots of time but now it's all about having fun. Leaving his thoughts behind for the moment Mark entered the short-loan library immediately noticing Vickie, he knew her from the time he'd seen her working at Shadows; standing at the front desk talking to an older women behind it, and from the looks of things their apparent conversation isn't going too well.

"I'm going to refuse to pay a stupid $2.00 fine just because I'm two minutes over due; it's a ridiculous rule and one that needs to be dropped." Vickie said.

"I do not want to repeat myself Miss. Pearson but rules and regulations are what we stand by," the older woman answered.

"Here." Mark flicked a gold coin onto the desk, the older woman snapped it up in an instant; Vickie shot Mark a deadest look not really impressed he'd interrupted her ranting.

"I guess we are now done here." The woman smiled smugly, Vic narrowed her eyes she muttered underneath her breath but picked up her bag and walked off not without giving Mark another irritated glance. He grinned to himself but knew he wouldn't let this lie just yet. Leaving the book he'd intended to return Mark left the short-loan library and saw Vickie already climbing the stairs so in a flash he rushed to catch up.

"Where you going off in such a hurry?" he whispered quietly pulling up beside her, Vickie stopped as did Mark she looked at him quizzically.

"Work obviously. Something you don't seem all too familiar with from what I know," she replied.

"Hey I do work," he answered defensively; Vickie gave him a skeptical look in return.

"And in what line of job would your work be considered?"

"Private." He smirked.

'Yeah…private whatever you say. Now if you'll excuse me I need to go." Vickie turned away and headed towards the quad; Mark stayed put watching her leave for a moment. Suddenly he got an idea, an idea he knew his three mates would surely agree to. Breaking into a propounding smile he whirled around and headed back upstairs.

December 22, 2012

Bitter Sweet in 2012

Just few more days left & soon we will be in a new day, new month & new year.. 2013, will be the year where everyone is hoping their life will be way more better, dreams will come true, everything goes as planned.. get marry with the person they love, have kids & bla bla bla

But before that, I would like to share things that 2012 has taught me.. As I'm grew matured, life is gaining more experiences in toughest way. Where money become the most stressful 'topic' in anyone's life, I believe.. Yes I do admit that sometimes money makes me become stressful but that is not what life is all about.. Though nowadays everything is about money, still it can't buy you those precious little moments that you're craving for..

Well to me, my uncle lost his battle with lymphoma cancer on Dec 7th at 11:52pm, right in front of me & my aunt. It will be a day that I'll never forget for the rest of my life. Sometimes I can still imagine that he was here, with us.. The only words that me, mom & my aunts keep talking bout it, we never feel that he'd leave us, as a matter of fact we always think that he 'is' here.. 

It could be our own imagination, in psychology.. I don't know how the peeps involved in the field will call it but to me it's an imagination that we're creating ourself. This is the 1st time I felt this hard over someone's death, maybe bcoz we were close. I can still remember that when my nana passed away, I was only 6 & knew nothing bout it..

But this time, it really hurts our heart. I once told my mom that sometimes we need to get out from the house & take some fresh air or do things that will make u busy..

Ok, that's enough.. The more I'm typing bout it, the more sad I will be..

The sweetest thing happened in 2012..................... this is it;)


- Meeting new friends & we become closer til today.. we even talk bout anything including our personal's life esp Sarah & Ruaa.. Mom & dad still didn't know that Sarah is a stranger, she's not my old friend as they thought but we finally become a good friend, so does Ruaa.. my Babylon girlfriend. Few days ago she told me, she finally met someone & they will get marry next year..


- Family vacation; the last time we had a vacation is in CNY, that was in Jan.. And out of nowhere dad's plan a vacation to Langkawi Island which he took me when I was 11 *I skipped school for that*. He said he  just wanna be fair with my 6 yr old brother, Darwsiy.. and he exactly take us to the same location where we'd go before..


- Concerts; no concerts for me this year although I really wanted to go to The Wanted & Maroon 5. Their gigs were in the same week dammit!! But I still can chill myself with it, I got 2 gigs to go next year hehehe. As soon as I found out that Lawson is coming to KL in April, I'm already set it in my mind that I would go no matter what but....... my bff's wedding is in April too!!! I hope it won't be in the same week.. *Pray for that* 1 to go, few mins ago, my eyes catch this sentence Tiffany Alvord is coming to KL IN March 30th..

Other stuff
-Followed by Jodi Albert as well as tweet reply
- Dad won the 2nd place in semi-finale of karaoke's competition
- My 6 yrs old brother graduated from kindergarten *we're so proud with u baby*

That is enough to make me smile.. But I can't too enjoyable.. We're still in grieving u know..

P/S : Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays as well as Happy New Year!!!

This would make me laugh for the WHOLE DAY!! Hahahahhahahahahhahaha

xoxo - RZ


December 18, 2012

Rindu pak cik

Hari ni genap hari ke-11 pak cik pergi. Pak cik tahu tak kitorang semua rindu kat pak cik.. terasa macam pak cik ada je lagi. Bila makan je mesti teringat kat pak cik. Hari tu masa pergi Watson dengan mama, along teringat pak cik. Selalu kalau pergi dengan pak cik, macam-macam beli, walaupun tujuan pergi Tesco tu cuma nak beli Deysham je..

Then pagi Sabtu plak, pak cik dah standby kat luar nak hantar along pergi kerja, padahal along baru nak breakfast kat dapur. Keluar masuk pak cik tengok along tak sudah-sudah lagi makan. Sudahnya pak cik buka helmet duduk kat sofa luar.. *lambat sangat along nak siap dgn makan erk*

Kalau dulu tengah hari pak cik hantar nasi, sekarang dah tak ada.. Kadang macam terbayang je pak cik kat depan..Orang-orang kat rumah semua sedih lagi. Hurm semalam masa along balik, mama, mak long & mak nyah tengah kemas bilik pak cik. Diorg cakap ada terjumpa wasiat pak cik.

Rupanya wasiat tu dah lama pak cik tulis erk, tahun 2007.. Along tak baca pun lagi sebab tak tahu mama letak kat mana. Cari dalam almari pun tak jumpa. Diorg cakap sedih sangat.. Dalam wasiat tu pak cik ada minta kalau pak cik dah tak ada, pak cik minta semua orang bacakan pak cik Al-Fatihah..

Ya Allah, pak cik tak payah minta. Kitorang akan sentiasa baca untuk pak cik.. Setiap subuh & maghrib, kakak, abang & adik-adik pak cik baca Surah Yasin.. InsyaAllah along akan sentiasa bacakan Al-Fatihah untuk pak cik..

Kadang-kadang along selalu fikir, kenapa pak cik pergi cepat sangat padahal pak cik admitted sebab demam je.. Belum sempat along nak balas budi pak cik, along rasa sedih sangat. Tak sangka raya tahun ni raya kita yang terakhir.

Mungkin Allah dah tentukan apa yang akan berlaku seterusnya untuk setiap kejadian, kita sebagai hamba cuma redha je.. 

Eiyka ada cakap yang dia ada mimpi pak cik, hurm along tak ada mimpi pak cik lagi pun.. Ni yang jealous ni.. hehe Read more.

*Dalam Kenangan - Gone But Not Forgotten*

-June 2012-


-Credited to my uncle, Salleh Wari-

xoxo - RZ


December 15, 2012

Pemergian Allahyarham Sainal Abidin

Tahlil malam ke-7 telah selesai.. Begitu jugalah dengan rohnya yang telah keluar dari rumah setelah genap 7 hari.. Tak hairanlah kalau aku katakan rohnya ada mencium mak nyah & mama pada malam terakhir rohnya berada di rumah.

Takut?? Ya memang takut.. bohonglah kalau aku katakan yang ada masanya kami tidak takut, itu sifat lumrah biasa setiap manusia.. Rindu, sayang & sedih... tapi semua tu takkan mengambil masa yang cepat untuk pulihkan hati kami semua..

Kehilangan arwah bagaikan kehilangan sesuatu yang berharga & tiada nilai ganti.. Rindu nak lakukan weekend routine kitorang semasa hayatnya.. Asal hari Jumaat je, mesti terparking kereta Honda Civic warna kuning sampai pagi Isnin.. arwah kerja di Gerik, walaupun cuti cuma sehari, mesti arwah tetap nak balik Ipoh..

Bila setiap pagi Sabtu arwah akan hantar aku pergi kerja, bawa mak long, mak nyah atau mama pergi pasar tani di stadium, hantar lunch di office..

Rindu nak apply Deysham di rambut Pak Cik Nan.. Setiap kali Ahad, mesti kitorang pergi Tesco & beli Deysham di Vida Beauty shop.. Paling wajib sekali mesti kena beli sotong sardin, fevret Pak Cik Nan & Darwsiy.. setiap kali beli mesti 2-3 tin..

Tapi semua tu cuma tinggal kenangan je.. Sampai bila-bila pun aku takkan lupa memori terakhir aku tunggu arwah Pak Cik Nan di hospital dengan mak long. Kalau sesiapa tanya macam mana perasaan aku masa tu, honestly aku memang tak dapat nak explain.. Kuasa Allah S.W.T., Dia sahaja yang tahu macam mana perasaan aku masa tu..

Aku cuma rasa terkilan sangat.. Malam tulah malam terakhir aku tunggu di hospital walaupun pada mulanya aku cuma nak datang sekejap dengan mak long.. 4 hari aku tak datang hospital sebab sakit, petang Jumaat tu aku patut ambil mama di hospital & since mama cakap ambil pukul 7, aku pun duduk di office & settlekan kerja, rupanya aku tak sedar mama ada send message. *Tak datang hospital ke* and aku pun call mama & cakap otw..

Dua jam kitorang di situ. Pukul 10 aku datang semula dengan mak long.. Selama 4 hari aku tak datang hospital, arwah ada 2 kali call aku.. 1st call pukul 9.30pm, aku tidur time tu.. Tengok ada miscall naik nama Pak Cik Nan, aku call balik, time tu da pukul 10.30pm.. dia cakap dia sakit.. 2nd call hari Selasa/Khamis, dia minta ice batu.. untuk apa aku tak tahu..

Tak henti-henti mama, mak long, mak nyah & adik-beradik yang lain cakap hancur betul hati diorg. Opah cakap Pak Cik Nan pergi dengan redha, senyum je wajah dia.. bau pun wangi..

Ya Allah,
Kau tempatkan rohnya di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman,
Kau jauhkanlah rohnya dari azab siksaan kuburmu,
Dan Kau terangilah kuburnya seperti mana Kau menerangi syurgamu,

Amin amin yarobbalalamin..

xoxo - RZ